August 12th, 2008 | |
Posted in Books
This is the 5/6 book for my “What’s in a name?” reading challenge.
For a very thin book, this is actually full of events that will make you think that it is very nostalgic, but at the same time, ang dami ring political and philosophical tones that were brought up.
I had a hard time reading the book, I guess it’s because I had to convince myself that this guy (the protagonist) actually remembered what happened to his life in the most accurate way possible. Eh siyempre, I am a psychology major, and I do believe that we reconstruct our memory. But then again, I am ripping the fun from literature, am I? So ayun, I had to bear with it while my mind was screaming and protesting, ha ha.
The book actually reminds me of those stories about hacienderos, with their throngs of servants and whatnot. It somehow reminds me of a telenovela, where a character is considered as hampaslupa by their señor and señorita. In this case naman, everything was told from the protagonist’s point of view, an heir to the hacienda himself. He saw luxury, he saw death, he saw pain, he saw joy, he saw a little bit of everything. But I think what I experienced here is more of misery and helplessness, not only among the protagonist’s father’s workers, but within his own family. Lahat may internal struggle — the father included.
“Now listen… You are young and you don’t know many things, but do remember this: you are alone in this earth. Alone. You must act for yourself and no other. Kindness is not appreciated any more, nor friendship. Think of yourself before you think of others. It’s a cruel world and you have to be hard and cruel, too. They will strangle you if you don’t strangle them first. Trust no one but your judgment — and even then don’t trust too much. (p. 125)”
This is probably the toughest, harshest, but one of the most honest statements I’ve read. Helps you lose your faith to mankind, no?
“In the end, the satisfaction which all of us seek, it seems, can come only from our discovering that we really have molded our life into whatever we want it to be. (p. 133)”
I feel for the protagonist because he knew that he is caught up in some disgusting system, and yet there is no way for him to escape that — or maybe perhaps he doesn’t want to. The book mirrors all of our beliefs and what we feel; it shows us the grit, the dirt, and yet because we are benefiting from these, we still cling on to them. We have a very messed-up system that needs to be demolished but we are hanging on to it.
This is how it was, and this is how it will be.